Genetech....---->
I had the time of ma life there....well not the first few days ofcos, cos i was called a nerd by someone whose name is P & C...:D...so yeah, but after that i got to knw every one and they were soo nice to me....i will never forget them, they are all dear to ma heart and gonna miss them soo muchhh.....
These are memories to take with me, and keeps me stress free from hectic life schedules.....wish i could just extend my stay there, but sadly i cant cos i have to go to Aus.. :(....i soo badly dint wanna, just cos ma pappa wants me to have a betta life....well at times i do think... am i doing all this for me??....or just satisfying the needs of wat my parents want??...i dnt knw?? alot of parents are seeing their kids as product, forcing them to become docs, engineer and lawyer etc, well i should leave it to them to decide??, i do understand, where when we cant make decisions for our selves they make it for us....i dnt knw i am perplexed...i guess i am 2 confused to think for ma self wats right?? or am i talking just plain gibberish....
Ma grand ma is here from india...i was happy to see her afta soo lng...but sad i couldnt keep her company... just leave her alone at home and go to work with ma dad....so al day long she sleeps...wow wish i could doo that...but i can only wish for...as i am an insomniac...:(...not good....is it just too much stress or unwanted thoughts in ma mind??, wish i could just wash it out, or had filter in ma head....its not possible lol...so i guess i have to just live with it and not share with it...shitty...
It all comes down to you..actually that means "ME".....i have to play ma cards right, just make sure i dnt have too much bluffs going cos one day my life will end up in a big blob of bluff..As it is, i dnt feel the same as i was 16 years old, i am 22 turning 23 in nov...still theres some element missing in ma life??, and its def not fire, its something more subtle and sweet, i cant hope for anything now, cos wat ever i start ends in misery, so i shall not spark anything up, just be me...i guess ma times of frustration is calming down, afta i started this blogging thingy, well if ur reading out there, i am sure u must be thinking wow, this guys blog is all about him, not others, well thats just me, call me selfish, but in this world, you got to be selfish to survive, i have had alots of experience that way...it sucks.... i dnt mean to hurt anyone or make any one feel bad...just be happy and safe....ciaow...
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